When you look at Nicole Scherzinger you think that she is this very happy and crazy girl but deep down it was a completely different story.

Talking to British Cosmopolitan Nicole decided to open up about her battles with bulimia.

Talking to the Mag Nicole said:

“I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world, but I was miserable on the inside.

For most of Nicole’s life she has struggled with eating disorder and during her twenties was the most hard for her.

She went on to explain:

“It is such a horrible, paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me. I didn’t think anyone knew in my group or in my family because I hid it that well, I was so ashamed. I knew it wasn’t normal or healthy because I was hurting myself through this cycle of disordered eating.”

The former Pussycat Doll singer ten said that she had to hit rock bottom before she could et on with her life:

“I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France. I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.’ I’m never letting that happen again. You only get one life.”

Hopefully now Nicole is back on tack and a lot more healthier.